Thursday, November 27, 2008 - 6:03 AM
Dear diary,Allow me to pen down some of my thoughts so i could feel better at least?I blame myself for NOT thinking before acting on something. Why didnt I cool down and think if what i am doing later is hurtful to the other party? Before I realise it, everything happened too quickly. I am too late to realised my mistakes. You really dont deserve these harsh craps from me. You deserve someone better!I will always remember you as my 1st. I really miss you, I miss you but I guess I am not even in the position to tell you i miss you anymore =(I will never forget the happy times we had, the craps we shared, the things you did to bring a smile to my face, to fulfil my wishes and being there for me 24/7, putting me the number1 in your heart.I know you will never forgive me, perhaps you hate me now? I know I once meant so much to you that it hurt you too much to ever forgive me. I am bad with words and expressing myself, but I just wanna let you know I really love you and you bring me joy. I know you are not coming back to me anymore.I sincerely thank you for all the things you had done for me that no other guys did,really! I apologise for all the times I upset you, wish I could be given another chance, wish I could think before i act on something harsh... But its all too late now. "Sorry" wouldnt be the word i would say to you anymore, cause it does not matter to you anymore. After doing some reflection, I know some of my actions were so wrong, so hurtful to you.我希望一切可以重来。。给我多一次机会好吗？ 我发誓一定不会再范一样的错。。I hope you are doing well, better than me at least. Take care~Theres still so much that I want to pen down here... But.....Dont worry about me people.myheartisbleeding
falling in love~
