Monday, January 31, 2011 - 9:14 PM
The fear and phobia in UOL exams.
Its supposed to be the final lap for me provided I clear my papers. After failing some of the papers, It had incurred fear and phobia for me. I really do not want to repeat it again. Its really mentally and physically draining roller coaster ride. I blamed myself entirely for not being intelligent & diligent. In short, UOL is not for me. Invested so much time on it, even if I pass its just medicore work. Whats the point of coming UOL when honours classification is important. Major disappointment :'( I really can't cope with the level of stress especially when its near to the exams. (Perhaps there are too many accumulated doubts) Why am I so vulnerable?
I always asked myelf : Why everyone can do it but me!! Why??! I am supposed to graduate last semester and it got delayed. My friends who graduated got decent results in the 2nd hon-ours classification. Why can't I even attain the minimum :(
Now that its my final year. I am still not confident in clearing. Seriously, what am I thinking and what is wrong with me.
The whole academic journey in UOL is miserable to me.
The only thing I'm thankful about is meeting new and nice buddies like Melvin & Jiale...etc
I really hope I'm able to end this journey soon!! I do not want to do it again :(
falling in love~
